I guess when boredom kicks in, you’ll have nothing to do but blog huh.

In fact, I have lots to do. Eve’s house is in a mess cos of the boxes and my suitcases lying around the living room, the kitchen is sorta in a mess cos of my attempt to make bagua last night (though I dont know if it is a success or not cos I cannot eat and eve is on a detox so she wont eat it! but by the looks and smells of it, they should be good, or at least edible!) the dining table has all these letters and catalogues and stuff, I’m still trying to finish the food before we have to leave, etc.

Its been ages since I’ve posted a picture or two on my blog huh. It always amazes me how people can post tons of picture in a post, take xiaxue for example! she has tons of pictures in a post! I’ve tried once or twice, but when I felt like I already uploaded a lot of pictures, I look back and its only a mere 7 or 8 pictures. lol

One day aaron asked me how to use xanga. He said he remembered I used to have a xanga account. LOL. that was aaaages back! I went back to read it and realised how my writing has changed. well, cant blame me, I was only 15 then. I bet when I come back to read what I am writing now in 3 or 4 years, I would chuckle and say the same thing to myself, “so childish *rolls eyes*”

How was Holland? Holland was AWESOME! It definitely brought back memories we had there, memories we made there, and no doubt created more memories. We took a minicruise to Rotterdam, and from Rotterdam took a coach to Amsterdam, where we spent a day walking around, and in the evening, took a train down to Voorschoten to look for Uncle NK.

Amsterdam is a place best explored with a bicycle imo. Bicycles >humans/pedestrians > cars. There are Bicycle paths everywhere!! We didnt tho. We just started walking and walking and walking till we reached Chinatown and saw this restaurant and walked in to ask for dimsum. It tasted like shit. Then after dinner, we walked around and saw so many other nice big chinese restaurants. LOL…

somewhere there

somewhere there

So by evening, when my legs are gonna break, we took a train all the way down to Voorschoten, Uncle Nai Kwong’s little town. He brought us from the train station to his home. Nice and cosy house. It was neat,  and nicely decorated, and definitely cosy. Auntie was preparing dinner, so we went to shower and stuff, and came down for dinner. A proper home cooked meal in ages (few months lah, but still ages to me) !! An after dinner walk around the neighbourhood, saw wierd looking houses, nice apartments, Uncle Michael and Auntie Lee Lee’s place, fields of Lavender, canals, and all the nice things you could get. Went to sleep all ready for the next day, which was nothing much.

Auntie Khau Tze took us around, back to Leidschendam to see our old house!

Anyone remember the hospital near our old house?

Anyone remember the hospital near our old house?

I bet mum remembers it!

We went to the market thingy.. I dont know how to spell it but its something like Hobbema, and we had fish! the type that we used to eat as a child! walked around looking at things, they had EVERYTHING there. Clothes, food, fruits, vegetables, nuts (and who could forget nuts in Holland. I couldnt find the one that we always went to, so didnt buy much fresh nuts. only the packed ones), antiques, bags, fish, meat, you name it they got it!

After that we went to Leidschenhaag to walk around.

In front of Hema and V&D

In front of Hema and V&D

Bought some things, walked around, and headed back home.

Bah, this is getting boring.

Lets see if I have any interesting pictures.

Trains here have two floors. Good idea for more seats huh!

Trains here have two floors. Good idea for more seats huh!

everybody meet coco

everybody meet coco

Bart and Bobby. LOL do I need to tell you which is which?

Bart and Bobby. LOL do I need to tell you which is which?

lost your bicycle somewhere in there?

lost your bicycle somewhere in there?

Yeap, theyre all bicycles!!

Bah, bored already. C ya guys sooooon!

I wander why everytime I feel like blogging, I log in and I have no idea what to blog about. My Life isnt as happening as it seems… while other teenagers enjoy going out clubbing and dancing, and karaoke-ing, I on the other hand enjoy baking, shopping (bet everyone likes doing this), cleaning (for goodness sake! I spent last night vacuuming this small house and ended up in sweat! I swear its friggin hot today it was like 28 degrees!), and having alone time. BAH. I am getting old!!

Today Eve n I were in town and we actually found this candy store that sold any type of candy you could think of. And the best part was………… yep! you guessed it, they had sugar free ones! A whole (little) part of the shop was for sugar free stuff! so picked a few candies after having dimsum (yum!) for lunch! Went to change money for Amsterdam/Holland.

When we got home, eve started going through her bag. Then she said “shit, where’s my phone?”

I looked at her for a minute, then said “want me to call it?” “yeah”

so i called… it went through, but it wasnt ringing! SO! we thought it was on the bus! and started to panic and all getting bus times and where it should be now and stuff… then when we were about to leave the house to chase after the bus, Eve looked down and there it was, on the kitchen counter.

Pff… what a day huh!

bah cant be bothered to update.

Jenny says my blog is dead.

Well I guess so, looking at the amount of effort I put into updating it. Lets see, thats none.

Just came back from a game of rounders. It was FUN FUN FUN (although we were in the sun, but everybody loves the sun here!) We won by 1 or 2 points, and the other team was obviously not happy. But oh well, its just a game.

We had universities come to visit us today. promoting their univesities. The representative of Queen Mary’s University also gave a speech. I didnt mind the speech. But I seriously cant stand those people who talk when others are talking. I mean, imagine yourself in his shoes. How would you feel if you was giving a speech, and some group of girls were chattering on about their own life, how their boyfriends love them and would get the moon for them (ok I totally made that up, but they were talking!)

It is damn rude okay! And if people talking is not bad enough, what about those, who say “haiya, fan shi le (damn annoying)” every 0.5 second or so.

The poor guy was literally rushing to get his speech done that he didnt even have time to promote his university much.

Anyway, enough of lowly people who dont appreciate little things in life.

Thorpe Park yesterday was so so. Part of the reason why was cos we’ve been there before so there wasnt really a big hype about it. But we did manage to go on some rides that werent open/had a queue that was too long the previous time we went.

We spent 80 mins queueing up for a new ride, called Saw. Yes, from the disgusting movie Saw. And when we got off the ride (which took like 30 seconds woohoo =.=”) we saw Albee, Alex, and two other girls preparing to go on the next round. They bought express tickets which costed 4 pounds and only waited for what. 1 minute? Silly much

Anyway, I went with one of the girls.(sigh, everytime I bitch I seem to come here… I hope no one from Bosworth reads my blog! Sorry but I’m PMSing) Which was a good thing and a bad thing I guesss…

She was scared of this scared of that. Didnt wanna sit outside, didnt wanna sit alone, didnt wanna sit in front, want to eat there, doesnt want to play this, scared of this scared of that.

Which got kinda annoying after a while, cos if youre scared of this and that then whats the point of going there in the first place? You might as well have fun on the swings in the park.

So yeahhh…

Anyway, gotta go for dinner now. Continue on later!

I keep having wierd dreams recently.

Last night, after crying till my eyes couldnt take it anymore (dont ask, my dog is sick) I finally fell asleep. I somehow dreamt of yiki. I was pretty close to her in my dream, so close that I even went to visit her room (got toilet one) and I remember saying “oh, your toilet so small wan ah!”

But my dream led me to think that she is really nice. Maybe I dont hang out with her so I dont know. Maybe its a sign or something.I dont know.

I couldnt study the whole day today. my heart just wasnt where it is. keeps wandering off, thinking of the worse that could happen.

All this has to happen now, when I have exams. But I cant control it, can I? All I can do is pray for my love that he will not suffer, he will get stronger, he will make it.

Weird dreams, exams, stress, homesickness… All I want now, is to be done with my exams, and be by Puffy’s side, something which would be impossible. Life sucks, doesnt it.

I actually come down to look through some past papers. But I thought I might as well let some of those feelings out, my blog, my trusty friend.

I cant wait to go home. I love you Puffy.

I just woke up from the wierdest dream.

started to nap at about 3. Woke up at 4 to pee, came back, and slept more. Sigh, its the procrastination.

Anyway, I left my music on cos I didnt think I would be sleeping for long. Into my sleep, I started to dream.

There were a lot of tables, and a lot of people were there. Dexter, Flora, teachers, and most importantly, Mum n Dad!!  They were waiting for me to have dinner with them, but I was on another table, busy sorting out pencil leads. Suddenly I had so many pancil leads. The coloured type that Cassandra always used, and even lacy ones that were so fragile I attempted to stuff into those lead holders that only had a small hole to insert or remove leads!! (the lacy ones were really nice tho! but wtf rightt… lacy pencil leads *rolls eyes*)

People started to leave! I remember Dexter talking about something on the next table, whilst everyone else was busy eating. I was listening to him talking to this person, then I turned over, and said “thats so typical of you!!!”. One by one, people left. Mum n dad were still waiting for me to sort out my leads. When I was finally done, I looked up, and only a few people were left.

I shouted “mee! Mee! (its what I call mum) you bang wo yao fan ma? (did you help me scoop rice?)”

Mum replied, “mei you, wo bu zhi dao ni yao fan (nope, I didnt know you wanted rice)”

then all of a sudden, I woke up. I didnt want to continue this dream because it would leave me in even more misery!

Just thought about it. Its duan wu jie. no reunion dinner, no grandma’s dumpling, and I really really miss eating with my family. I miss all of you guys at home lots. one more week, one more week of suffering and I am done. T.T Pray for me.

Today, is a really special day!!

You guys knowwhy?!?!?!?

BECAUSE SUMMER BALL IS TODAY!!!

Omg omg omg I’m so excited. But I cannot post it as my status in fb cos the school blocked it!!

Hahaha, well, summer ball’s besides the point. Today is my dearest FATSO’s birthday! Someone who’s been there since primary 1, got closer to me in pirmary 4 and then had her best friend get mad at her cause of that in primary 5 (lol those were the days), the person I turn to when I have soemthing to say, be it good or bad. My ultimate eating buddy, “pick you up in 5 mins. We go eat!!” lol…

I’d just like to say, life would be really different if I hadnt met you. I’ve learnt patience and preseverance from you, I’ve learnt that its not easy to find a friend like you (you know what I mean) Its like findin a needle in a haystack (wahh… use bunga english again)!!!

Anyway, Have a great great birthday without me!! I’ll treat you that dinner sometime (In miri?? hahahhaha) Wishing you all the best being 19, grow fatter cos chinese people think chubby = beautiful, and keep those lovely calves. God created them for a reason. To PROTECT me!! hahaha… thunder calves to the rescue.

Okay, luv u lots hun!

To the mum that couldnt get any better, to the person who raised me to become who I am today, to the beautiful mother in my life, mummy, I love you and miss you so much. Happy Mother’s Day!

She used to be my only enemy and never let me be free
Catching me in places that I knew I should’nt be
Every other day I crossed the line I didn’t mean to be so bad
I never thought you would become the friend I never had
Back then I didn’t know why
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes
All that you did was love
Mama I love you.Mama I care
Mama I love you . Mama my friend. You’re my friend
I didn’t want to hear it then but I’m not ashamed to say it now
Every little thing you said and did was right for me
I had a lot of to think about,about the way I usedto be
Never had a sense of my responsibility
Back then I didn’t know why
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes, all that you did was love
Mama, I love you. Mama, I care
Mama, I love you. Mama ,my friend. You’re my friend
But now I’m sure I know why,
Why you were misunderstood
So now I see through your eyes
All I can give you is love is love
Mama I love you. Mama, I care
Mama, I love you. Mama, my friend,You’re my friend
Mama, I love you, Mama ,I care
Mama, I love you, Mama, my friend, You’re my friend

PSYCHOLOGY . EXAMS . NEXT . WEEK .

How this, time really does fly!! its already wednesday! tomorrow’s thursday, then friday, and another week will be over. Then next week exams, then the week after that study leave/exams, then half term/summer ball, then exams, and then exams, and then mini term and then the summer hols!! Sigh, thats a long way to go. But I will survive ;)

Bah, I dont know what to update about. Life here is pretty much meh. Homework, exams, test, exams.

Today I am dead tired! I dont know why!

Anywayyyyyyyyyyyyy, Iisgotnothingelsetowriteabout.

OHMYGOSH look at those calves.. theyre already bigger than cait’s. I am officially OBESE. if youre saying “since when were you skinny?”, then mind you but I never said I was skinny. I used to be FAT. there is a difference you know…

I am gonna jump out of my window now. C u guys.

p/s thanks a lot for talking to me guys… Now its off my mind, i feel so great! IT is but a little leaf on the pathway that will not bother me no more!

just a few pictures =)

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Flowers, flowers and more flowers. There are gigantic pink trees that look just beautiful I’ll take more pictures.

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look at my face. its filled with fat and depression from it.

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my fave picture!!

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